PTSD is just one example of the lasting impact of rape. If left undiagnosed and untreated, this mental health condition is life threatening.By Shanon Lee
Trigger Warning: description of rape, violence and PTSD.Somehow, I was back to that familiar place. Moments after waking up drenched in sweat, I lie still in bed – waiting for my heart to stop racing and for the feeling to return to my body. I was safe. It's been twenty years since I was raped, but PTSD makes it feel like it wasn't that long ago. My nightmares are frequent, every dream is the same: my ex has found me and is going to finish me off. I'm walking leisurely along the beach, unaware that he is only a footstep behind me. I never see his face, I only hear his voice saying my name moments before he fires his gun. Days earlier, I accused my boyfriend of grabbing me by the ankles as I slept. That morning, I woke to find him standing at the foot of our bed and screamed. He was just saying goodbye before heading to work. I was experiencing flashbacks of the morning I was attacked. The scars from being dragged across the floor by my ankles as I struggled to escape have faded from my skin, but not my memory.
I firmly believe that one cannot utter the words Black Lives Matter and exclude Black sex workers.I am a semi-out sex worker. By semi-out I mean I’m internet out: I haven’t announced anything to most of my family and the “in-real-life” people who need to know, know. I have dabbled in a bit of everything, from stripping to prostitution to sugaring to camming. I am also an artist, freelancer and homeschooling mother, so there is a lot of nuance in what I desire out of life for my son and I. My only other avenue would be minimum or below-poverty level wages. When I write, I focus on sex workers of color. Most of the time I narrow it even further to Black sex workers and Black trans sex workers who face the most ire, discrimination and violence from both the police and within the Black community. I wrote a series of Twitter threads on sex work that discussed sex worker rights and briefly mentioned our place in Black Lives Matter. Here is one of them.
The way Black and brown sex workers live our lives is an act of rebellion and protest in and of itself. I am a sex worker, a Black one, and I specialize in dominance and submission. This Black woman is trying
Everybody is responsible when it comes to deconstructing rape culture. Another day, another Twitter post illustrating how we don't teach boys how to take no for an answer. Another day, another example of how we reinforce toxic masculinity and rape culture
Of course you're upset at not being invited to see Wonder Woman, that's totally discrimination. The march of the angry, cishet man-babies continues as press coverage increases for the new Wonder Woman movie which will be open in theaters near you