I am kind of a cat whisperer.
I have successfully rescued two strays across the street from my house just by calling them (and having delicious foods – let’s be honest – it might have been the foods). I’m pretty sure all the cats in the neighborhood got together and collectively said, “Dood, if we want food, hit that chic up cause she is a bonafide SUCKER” = me.
The first cat I convinced my husband we should keep. She was the first cat that came to ME. She needed MEee. And truth-be-told she was pretty bad off when we found her: abscess in one leg & barely 5 lbs soaking wet. I convinced him of this by the skin of my teeth. We already had two cats in a small one bedroom – the stray made three.
The second cat I found was a different story. Four is too many cats. WAY too many cats in fact. Three is too many. But four, well… I don’t need to tell you. You get the idea.
He ended up being one of the sweetest, most affectionate cats I’ve ever met. I knew from the very start that I couldn’t keep him, but did that stop me from falling in love with him for three weeks – hell no. He was a once-in-a-lifetime cat. And I am still reeling from my heartbreak.
The morning the couple came to take him to his “forever home” I held it together, until I handed the girl the foam-ball the cat & I had been playing with all morning so she could take it with them. I burst into tears and couldn’t stop crying all day. It felt like I had just been broken up with – that hollow feeling you have in the middle of you.
What really bothered me about it though was that I kept apologizing about it. Apologizing for my emotions. True, it was maybe only a cat. And true, I maybe only knew him for three weeks, but those were my emotions gawddamnit. And I shouldn’t feel bad for feeling things. I think too often modern women feel like they need to be strong & push down their emotions (I certainly do). I don’t need to do that. We all have feelings – and those feelings – however trivial – are ours. And they are valid.
So the next time you find yourself apologizing for a tear or five – DON’T. It’s your party and you can cry if you want to.
Costume For The Day (Broken Hearts):
– Sleeveless cat dress from crazycatladyclothing.com
– Brown opaque tights from American Apparel
– Gold thimble earrings
Love you, mean it